My husband John has moved out and told me he is ready for divorce. I do not want this. I never have, but in my own wounds and shortcomings, I pushed him into this decision. For years I have blamed him for the failings in our marriage overlooking my own actions. However, in recent months, God has softened my heart, shown me where I need to heal and to grow. I see now the enemy in my marriage was the evil spirits we both allowed to dwell in our hearts and minds, not my husband. I honestly doubted his love for me, but God has opened my eyes to all of the things my husband is and has done for me. With this new clarity, I am more determined than ever to save my marriage.
In my heart, I am clinging to John 15:7. I am praying for God’s will which I believe is reconciliation. I am praying to be teachable so my wounds can heal and I can see where I still need to grow. I am praying for a softening of my husband’s heart so he would be open to an intentional effort of reconciliation before he makes this final decision of divorce. I am praying that going forward we put God at the CENTER of this marriage. I want nothing more than to reconcile with my husband, and I pray if I am making this an idol, that God will show me.
Thank you all