I am currently seperated from my wife and daughter This started in july of 2010.  I am alone with no hope, all I have is hurt.  I hurt everyday so badly, my heart breaks daily trying to reconcile this marriage.  My divorce date is set for dec 7th.  My life has been filled with oain and suffering.  I had leukemia as a teen, required a pancreas transplant because for the last 15 years I had chronic pancreatitis my wife left me while I was in the hospital after transplant.  I am tired, I have begged God to heal this marriage and He hasn’t, I am at the end of my rope.  I long for death, one way or another.  Without my wife and daughter there is no life, I refuse to live life suffering like this everyday, watching as another man comes into their lives…  I want to be done, I want to leave this place forever because all there has been for me is heartbreak and pain.  I hate my life, I hate myself and I am alone here… Right now, 30 ft from where I sit there is a gun and it is taking all I have from taking matters into my own hands…  WHere is God?  it has been a solid year of seeking him and begging for my family back and still it just gets worse…  I am out of options…  please pray for me